Tick. Tick. Tick.
Endless thoughts in my head.
I can't bring them together.
What time is it?
What will I write next?
I must do this...
I must finish that...
Tick. Tick. Tick.
I hear The Song and cry,
I can see things which I shouldn't,
Why doesn't anyone hear these things?
Tick. Tick. Tick.
Am I mad?
Or do I just see things others don't?
I cry for my dreams,
I make real my fantasies,
Tick. Tick. Tick.
Am I truely mad?
I don't know anymore,
How can I ever have been sane?
These thoughts that race inside my mind,
They would condem those less then I,
Tick. Tick. Tick.
Please, can't you find me?
Please, can't you teach me?
These things that I see,
These things that I hear,
I can't control it for long,
Tick. Tick. Tick.
This mask that I wear,
Is beginning to break,
How long can I hold this disguise?
How long can I hide?
Please help me.
Please...
Tick. Tick. Tick.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Tears
Why do I cry, you ask?
Why do I shed these tears?
Do you truely not know?
This pain that rips out my heart.
Don't you know the truth?
Can't you see?
These things that happen to you.
And yet you cannot cry.
But I can see the unbearable pain in your eyes.
You cannoy hide it.
But you do not cry.
You hold everything in.
Hiding it form the world.
Hiding behind that kind smile that no one deserves.
Is it for your sake?
Or for ours?
But it doesn't matter.
You asked why I cried.
It's so simple.
I cry for you.
I cry because you cannot.
Why?
Because someone has to.
Let me more for you.
I will bare your sadness.
I will take your pain.
Trust me.
I will not betray you.
Teach me.
I will not fail you.
Yes...
Trust me.
I will not leave you.
Why do I shed these tears?
Do you truely not know?
This pain that rips out my heart.
Don't you know the truth?
Can't you see?
These things that happen to you.
And yet you cannot cry.
But I can see the unbearable pain in your eyes.
You cannoy hide it.
But you do not cry.
You hold everything in.
Hiding it form the world.
Hiding behind that kind smile that no one deserves.
Is it for your sake?
Or for ours?
But it doesn't matter.
You asked why I cried.
It's so simple.
I cry for you.
I cry because you cannot.
Why?
Because someone has to.
Let me more for you.
I will bare your sadness.
I will take your pain.
Trust me.
I will not betray you.
Teach me.
I will not fail you.
Yes...
Trust me.
I will not leave you.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Can You Hear Me?
What in this world is right? What in this world makes sense? Hidden behind trapped boxes and walls. I want a roof made of the stars. I want to walk on a ground made out of clouds. I want a carpet of diamonds. I want to hold the sky in my hands. I want to see those things that cannot be seen. What is this thing we call 'time'? What locks us to this small world? I want to see. I want to know. Can you show me? Can you teach me? I will follow where you go. I will listen to what you speak. Where are you? Won't you come for me? This silence that drives my mind. This nothingness that envelops my life. What in this world isn't madness?
Can you hear me? Can you see this plea? Perhaps you do not think. But I am writing to you. Yes, to you. Perhaps I can, perhaps I cannot. But I do know one thing. I can write, spin words under my fingers. No one might ever see it, might never read it. But to have it written down, all of it, would it not be good? It must be lonley... Perhaps, perhaps. Would it do you some good? Would it hurt to try?
I am waiting.
Can you hear me? Can you see this plea? Perhaps you do not think. But I am writing to you. Yes, to you. Perhaps I can, perhaps I cannot. But I do know one thing. I can write, spin words under my fingers. No one might ever see it, might never read it. But to have it written down, all of it, would it not be good? It must be lonley... Perhaps, perhaps. Would it do you some good? Would it hurt to try?
I am waiting.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
My Words to You
This world of deception,
This cursed black slate.
Take a look in the mirror,
Do you curse your fate?
These shattered trusts you cannot break,
Will forever haunt you.
The heartache I feel,
Will always begin anew.
Listen to my words,
Hear this pain in my voice.
You have to start trusting me,
Do you have really any choice?
I can offer you shelter,
Hide you from the rest of the world.
Come to me freely,
With you secrets on wings unfurled.
You may not trust me,
For how would trust my kind?
But I am perhaps your only choice now,
Will you come or will you stay behind?
You must choose now,
You cannot afford to wait,
Those enemies that chase you,
Will not ever hesitate.
Come, secret shadow,
Let me be your guide.
I will guard you with me life,
You never again have to hide.
This cursed black slate.
Take a look in the mirror,
Do you curse your fate?
These shattered trusts you cannot break,
Will forever haunt you.
The heartache I feel,
Will always begin anew.
Listen to my words,
Hear this pain in my voice.
You have to start trusting me,
Do you have really any choice?
I can offer you shelter,
Hide you from the rest of the world.
Come to me freely,
With you secrets on wings unfurled.
You may not trust me,
For how would trust my kind?
But I am perhaps your only choice now,
Will you come or will you stay behind?
You must choose now,
You cannot afford to wait,
Those enemies that chase you,
Will not ever hesitate.
Come, secret shadow,
Let me be your guide.
I will guard you with me life,
You never again have to hide.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Trust
I feel the eyes watching me.
I can hear your voice.
Why do you hide yourself from me?
Do you think you cannot trust me?
But of course!
I am human.
Why would anyone want to trust a human?
Humans lie, cheat, and steal.
Humans would betray you for their own personal game.
Of course you wouldn't believe that I would never do that.
You'd never believe that I would sacrifice my life to protect your secret.
You'd never believe that you can trust me.
So I will wait.
I'll wait my entire life.
Because maybe it will happen someday.
Maybe someday someone will see this pathetic human.
And they will share that secret.
And I will be able to prove to them my sencerity.
Where are you magic?
Where are you the stories that I believe in?
Where are you lost and hated myth?
I will take you in without a thought.
I will shelter you if it would cost me my own life.
I will protect you with everythin in my power and beyond.
Even if I am a human.
Someday I will prove my trust to you.
But maybe you need to trust me first.
I'm waiting.
I can hear your voice.
Why do you hide yourself from me?
Do you think you cannot trust me?
But of course!
I am human.
Why would anyone want to trust a human?
Humans lie, cheat, and steal.
Humans would betray you for their own personal game.
Of course you wouldn't believe that I would never do that.
You'd never believe that I would sacrifice my life to protect your secret.
You'd never believe that you can trust me.
So I will wait.
I'll wait my entire life.
Because maybe it will happen someday.
Maybe someday someone will see this pathetic human.
And they will share that secret.
And I will be able to prove to them my sencerity.
Where are you magic?
Where are you the stories that I believe in?
Where are you lost and hated myth?
I will take you in without a thought.
I will shelter you if it would cost me my own life.
I will protect you with everythin in my power and beyond.
Even if I am a human.
Someday I will prove my trust to you.
But maybe you need to trust me first.
I'm waiting.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Song
"In sleep he sang to me."
I can hear the song in the air.
I can feel its power flood through me.
I can't escape from it.
"In dreams he came."
Everytime I close my eyes, I see his face.
I feel his presence beside me.
He's always with me, no matter where I came.
"That voice which calls to me."
I hear him when I'm alone.
I hear him when I'm surrounded by hundreds of people.
I hear him everywhere, every minute of the night and day.
"And speaks my name."
He's calling for me.
He's calling me to his side.
I can't resist him.
"And do I dream again?"
I can't tell realty from dreams anymore.
I hear him everywhere.
Is it in my dreams or am I awake?
"For now I find."
There's only one thing I can tell anymore.
The rest of the world has abandoned me.
My sanity had left me.
"The Phantom of Eternal Darkness is there."
Always there.
Always here.
Always...
"Inside my mind."
Always...
Always...
Always...
I can hear the song in the air.
I can feel its power flood through me.
I can't escape from it.
"In dreams he came."
Everytime I close my eyes, I see his face.
I feel his presence beside me.
He's always with me, no matter where I came.
"That voice which calls to me."
I hear him when I'm alone.
I hear him when I'm surrounded by hundreds of people.
I hear him everywhere, every minute of the night and day.
"And speaks my name."
He's calling for me.
He's calling me to his side.
I can't resist him.
"And do I dream again?"
I can't tell realty from dreams anymore.
I hear him everywhere.
Is it in my dreams or am I awake?
"For now I find."
There's only one thing I can tell anymore.
The rest of the world has abandoned me.
My sanity had left me.
"The Phantom of Eternal Darkness is there."
Always there.
Always here.
Always...
"Inside my mind."
Always...
Always...
Always...
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Whispers
"Darkness," they whisper to me. "Is that not what you saught?"
"Times have changed," I replied. "I no longer desire that which you offer."
"Is that right? You cannot hide your thoughts and desires from me. I see the deepest secrets that you keep from the word. The shadows which you crave, the darkness which you covet."
"You're wrong," I say. "I have no hidden cravings or covets."
"Oh, sweet child of darkness, you cannot lie to me. I have seen that which is in your heart and hidden in your soul. That genius which turns to madness. The madness which turns to genius. You need not fear these unknown feelings. Give them to me and I shall make your wish come true."
"I have no wish."
"Do not fight me."
"I have no desires."
"You cannot decieve me."
"I am not mad."
"Your genius is madness in itself."
"I am not a creature of darkness!"
The darkness laughs. "Oh, but you are. You are my beloved daughter of shadows. You are the egg which I have cared for that will soon hatch into my greatest masterpeice!"
"I... I'm scared."
"Do not be frightened, sweet daughter of shadows. I shall watch over you and guard your madness until it is ready to bloom."
"Times have changed," I replied. "I no longer desire that which you offer."
"Is that right? You cannot hide your thoughts and desires from me. I see the deepest secrets that you keep from the word. The shadows which you crave, the darkness which you covet."
"You're wrong," I say. "I have no hidden cravings or covets."
"Oh, sweet child of darkness, you cannot lie to me. I have seen that which is in your heart and hidden in your soul. That genius which turns to madness. The madness which turns to genius. You need not fear these unknown feelings. Give them to me and I shall make your wish come true."
"I have no wish."
"Do not fight me."
"I have no desires."
"You cannot decieve me."
"I am not mad."
"Your genius is madness in itself."
"I am not a creature of darkness!"
The darkness laughs. "Oh, but you are. You are my beloved daughter of shadows. You are the egg which I have cared for that will soon hatch into my greatest masterpeice!"
"I... I'm scared."
"Do not be frightened, sweet daughter of shadows. I shall watch over you and guard your madness until it is ready to bloom."
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